Is to live a smaller life. I want to ride my bike to work (when its not snowing or icing). I want to work for a company that does something important. I want to be a part of a company, rather than just a number.
I don't know how to do this. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up, but I do know that I don't want to be this. Whatever this is, its not working for me anymore. I know that growing a garden and taking care of my family is a step in the right direction of living a smaller life and not being so dependent on the system.
I know I can't quit my job until I have a replacement, but dear God, I cannot wait until I can get out. I know that having a "regular" job is a different life than I have now, and I didn't love my last "regular" job, but I did love the routine of it. I loved that on Saturday mornings, Hubby and I went to the market, and that I did laundry on Sundays. I don't know how to be happy at work anymore. I am afraid that if I find something I love, that I won't make enough money to help support my family. Is living smaller more key?
But what does that even mean? Less cable? No cable? Bye bye Blackberry? Having chickens? I don't know... Maybe perhaps I am having my quarter life crisis....